We decorated for Halloween. Handsome 1 was so excited. I loved that this year I was able to hang up a couple of decorations I had saved that Handsome 1 had made and evene one Handsome 2 had made this year!
We FINALLY carved pumkins.
Handsome 1 and 2 were so exited and asked me every day last week. Sadly, we have had such a jam packed schedule I just haven't had the time to until this past Saturday.
We attended a local "Ghost Train" ride...always a favorite with the kids but for whatever reason, this year seemed less eventful.
And I made healthy Halloween treats for Handsome 1's Pre-K class with some help from the boys :) Super cute and fun!
And tonight we trick-or-treat!
Thursday, October 31, 2013
Tuesday, October 29, 2013
a gluten free normal life.
Just had to share this post from Rachel at Finding Joy. Not only does she speak to my heart about motherhood but she also has a boy with Celiac Disease so her journey is close to my heart obviously.
Here is her post: a gluten free normal life.
I am not where she is yet. I am still in a denial phase I think. I still hurt for what Handsome 2 will "never have" or "never have again". I still ache for his inability to have the cookie from the deli or to have the snacks at the Halloween party. I still can't figure out how to eat out with him. I still ache with the thought that he has to ask me like he did today, "Is this gluten free?" My heart aches for what is, what will be, and what will never be for him.
He though, bless his heart, he acts like he is missing nothing. He knows what "hurts his belly" and if he doesn't know and I have to break the sad truth to him about something he wants, he acts like it is no big deal. He talks about how things like muffins and breads "used to" "hurt his belly" but "not anymore" because I make him or have found gluten free alternatives.
Bless him. Bless his strength and courage when I feel like I am lacking it. Bless my two year old boy who accepts life as it is and continues on despite the cards he has been dealt. He has taught me and continues to teach me more than I feel I can ever teach him about life.
So, "a gluten free normal life"? I am not there yet. But with the grace of God and the lessons in life my 2 year old's teaching me, I will get there.
Someday, I will know what "a gluten free normal life is". I am just not there yet.
Here is her post: a gluten free normal life.
I am not where she is yet. I am still in a denial phase I think. I still hurt for what Handsome 2 will "never have" or "never have again". I still ache for his inability to have the cookie from the deli or to have the snacks at the Halloween party. I still can't figure out how to eat out with him. I still ache with the thought that he has to ask me like he did today, "Is this gluten free?" My heart aches for what is, what will be, and what will never be for him.
He though, bless his heart, he acts like he is missing nothing. He knows what "hurts his belly" and if he doesn't know and I have to break the sad truth to him about something he wants, he acts like it is no big deal. He talks about how things like muffins and breads "used to" "hurt his belly" but "not anymore" because I make him or have found gluten free alternatives.
Bless him. Bless his strength and courage when I feel like I am lacking it. Bless my two year old boy who accepts life as it is and continues on despite the cards he has been dealt. He has taught me and continues to teach me more than I feel I can ever teach him about life.
So, "a gluten free normal life"? I am not there yet. But with the grace of God and the lessons in life my 2 year old's teaching me, I will get there.
Someday, I will know what "a gluten free normal life is". I am just not there yet.
Friday, October 25, 2013
Friday's Fun Facts
I haven't done one of these in a while so thought I would.
Here are some "Fun Facts" about my boys lately:
- Handsome 1 and 2 play so well together. Yesterday Handsome 1 asked 2 if he could play in the car 2 was using. Handsome 2 thought for a moment and said, "Yes you can" and got out. Then he turned to me and said, "See, no fighting." :) So proud of them.
- Handsome 1 hates meat. Handsome 2 loves it!
- Handsome 1 is so good about Handsome 2's food restrictions. He knows why and is quick to explain it to others. Handsome 2 is understanding now that certain foods, "hurt his belly" so that is why he can't have some stuff. Both boys are taking this all so well. Kids resilience amaze me. I learn from them every day in this regard.
- Both boys love a good dance party.
- Both boys love playing outside.
- Handsome 1 said the other day he loves his school. I just pray this continues.
- Handsome 2 asked when he could go to school. Sadly my oldest's preschool is closing...so sad. I am not sure what i will do with Handsome 2 as that is where I intended to send him.
- Handsome 1 is shy, reserved, and a perfectionist.
- Handsome 2 loves to cuddle, is confident, and goes with the flow.
- Handsome 1 loves tractors and learning how things work.
- Handsome 2 loves machinery and anything with wheels.
Both boys are such a joy and such a blessing. Sure they can make me want to hide away for a moment once in a while but honestly 90% of the time, I just smile and am grateful for every moment I have with them.
I am blessed.
Thursday, October 24, 2013
to the out of breath mom.
Click here for another amazing post from Rachel at Finding Joy.
to the out of breath mom.
I SOOOO needed to hear this today.
I find myself constantly feeling like I need to keep up and sacrificing myself (my health for one) to do so and that isn't right.
Rachel is right. Someday I will have that "perfectly clean house" and the laundry will be caught up. The toys wont be everywhere and I wont be constantly giving of myself.
It will happen.
However, it will happen at the sacrifice of children in my home to care for. So if you ask me which one do I want right now I will quickly respond, children in the home. Lots of them. I don't want that clean home, etc. I want the moments I have now.
The rest can wait.
to the out of breath mom.
I SOOOO needed to hear this today.
I find myself constantly feeling like I need to keep up and sacrificing myself (my health for one) to do so and that isn't right.
Rachel is right. Someday I will have that "perfectly clean house" and the laundry will be caught up. The toys wont be everywhere and I wont be constantly giving of myself.
It will happen.
However, it will happen at the sacrifice of children in my home to care for. So if you ask me which one do I want right now I will quickly respond, children in the home. Lots of them. I don't want that clean home, etc. I want the moments I have now.
The rest can wait.
Wednesday, October 23, 2013
Tuesday, October 22, 2013
From Crib to Toddler Bed
Late in September we decided since Handsome 2 was doing so well with potty training and since he was starting to attempt to climb in (not out..funny) of his crib it was time to take the side off his crib to convert it to the toddler bed. He was so excited (as was his brother).
Handsome 1 and 2 got right to work prepping his bed and then Handsome 1 took photos with me (too cute). Then Handsome 1 hopped right in and tried it out. He was so excited. I have never seen a kid so anxious to go to bed that night! For the first time too he grabbed a book to "read" as he drifted off to sleep for the night just as his brother does. It was bittersweet to see this change. Just another confirmation that my little boy is a boy and not a baby anymore but so wonderful to see him grow.
Monday, October 21, 2013
Living and Active Challenge Week 5
This is the last week for the challenge. It is amazing how it has made me accountable. Nobody is really making sure I do my exercise. I could lie. However, I am not one to do that so it holds me accountable. Also the fact that I am doing it with a friend and we check in with each other frequently helps.
This time I cut and pasted the whole "inspiration" that Clare wrote because it was what I needed to hear. I do find myself wondering as she said earlier in her whole post, "What next?" How do I keep this going? And I am SOOO determined in other things (my kids health, their education, really anything to do with my kids, cloth diapering, etc.) I don't give up. However, for whatever reason, I always give up with weight loss. I slip and I don't pick myself back up. I think Clare "hit the nail on the head" when she said I have been "preparing for a sprint not a marathon". All the other things with my kids take work but I see results much sooner than the LONG time it will take me to see the "end" of the marathon of my weight loss. Seeing weight loss in general is nice but apparently not enough to keep me going when I see how far I still need to go. Plus, I have a hard time putting "me" first AND not falling back into the "easier".
I am not sure how to shift my mindset to a "marathon" and not a "sprint" but it is something I NEED to do. I feel better when I am healthier, which makes me happier, which makes me a better Mommy, wife, friend, co-worker, etc. I know all that. But as Clare said, until I shift my mindset it wont matter.
Now, to just get there.
So, plans for Week 5 other than memorizing the verse, here is my plan for exercise:
Today I will do a video, Tuesday will be Zumba and Wednesday will be yoga. (So glad to be back to practicing yoga by the way...I forgot how much my body needs it.) I hope to catch Zumba again on Saturday and Sunday. Thursday and Friday are booked solid. If I do all of this it will be 5 days but I need to have a plan like this so that when one day doesn't work out I don't panic.
Now for food. Sigh. I still am working on that. I am such an "easy and fast food" eater (by fast I mean quick not actually fast food...I actually rarely eat that) as well as a "comfort" and "boredom" eater. I am not really ever "bored" as I have plenty to do but when I sit down before bed to unwind that is when I want to eat. I find myself realizing I am not even hungry it is just the habit and man does that habit have a tight hold on me. If you could hear the internal struggle I have, "You don't need it. You aren't even hungry" etc. but man it consumes my brain. I have tried just staying busy, which helps but then I have a very hard time settling in for rest at night. I haven't found an answer yet.
I guess again I need to realize this is a marathon and not a sprint. Looking at "short term" I have exercised 4 times a week for 5 straight weeks. Good for me. I have begun to really examine my eating and realize where my faults are as well as have the conversation with myself as I recognize you don't need this, you just want it, etc. That is a step right? Marathon not sprint right? I think I need to repeat these words over and over and over....
This time I cut and pasted the whole "inspiration" that Clare wrote because it was what I needed to hear. I do find myself wondering as she said earlier in her whole post, "What next?" How do I keep this going? And I am SOOO determined in other things (my kids health, their education, really anything to do with my kids, cloth diapering, etc.) I don't give up. However, for whatever reason, I always give up with weight loss. I slip and I don't pick myself back up. I think Clare "hit the nail on the head" when she said I have been "preparing for a sprint not a marathon". All the other things with my kids take work but I see results much sooner than the LONG time it will take me to see the "end" of the marathon of my weight loss. Seeing weight loss in general is nice but apparently not enough to keep me going when I see how far I still need to go. Plus, I have a hard time putting "me" first AND not falling back into the "easier".
Now, to just get there.
So, plans for Week 5 other than memorizing the verse, here is my plan for exercise:
Today I will do a video, Tuesday will be Zumba and Wednesday will be yoga. (So glad to be back to practicing yoga by the way...I forgot how much my body needs it.) I hope to catch Zumba again on Saturday and Sunday. Thursday and Friday are booked solid. If I do all of this it will be 5 days but I need to have a plan like this so that when one day doesn't work out I don't panic.
Now for food. Sigh. I still am working on that. I am such an "easy and fast food" eater (by fast I mean quick not actually fast food...I actually rarely eat that) as well as a "comfort" and "boredom" eater. I am not really ever "bored" as I have plenty to do but when I sit down before bed to unwind that is when I want to eat. I find myself realizing I am not even hungry it is just the habit and man does that habit have a tight hold on me. If you could hear the internal struggle I have, "You don't need it. You aren't even hungry" etc. but man it consumes my brain. I have tried just staying busy, which helps but then I have a very hard time settling in for rest at night. I haven't found an answer yet.
I guess again I need to realize this is a marathon and not a sprint. Looking at "short term" I have exercised 4 times a week for 5 straight weeks. Good for me. I have begun to really examine my eating and realize where my faults are as well as have the conversation with myself as I recognize you don't need this, you just want it, etc. That is a step right? Marathon not sprint right? I think I need to repeat these words over and over and over....
Tuesday, October 15, 2013
Happy Birthday Buddy!
Today at 9:22 A.M. my "little boy" turned 5. I don't know why but this age feels similar to when he turned 1. It feels like a milestone. Five is school-age. Five feels like he is no longer my "little boy" and is officially a "boy". Where has the time gone?
As any mother will often say at any age, it feels like just yesterday that after 30 hours of difficult labor and delivery I delivered my first child. To say he is a blessing does not do justice. I am getting teary just thinking about it.
You are amazing buddy. You are my first child. You are so smart. So sweet. So sensitive. You have empathy and compassion beyond your years. You are an AMAZING big brother.
Things have not always been easy. The end of my pregnancy with you was hard- I had high blood pressure and bed rest. The labor was hard- 30 hours and you delivered face up and I had a 4th degree tear. Your first few hours and months were hard- in your first hours you stopped breathing once and you cried all night long. You initially tested positive for a rare disease that would have impacted your growth (LOL...look how big you are now!) and would have required constant supply of nutrients to your system as your body would not have been able to store them so for few weeks we were so scared and were required to feed you every 4 hours no matter what. You had colic your first 3 months and would only sleep if someone held you. You struggled to latch and I struggled to nurse you.
Then it was easy. Further testing showed you did not have the disease. You slept great. You ate great. You were growing wonderfully (and have continued!). You were developing and hitting milestones quickly. You were such a joy.
Then it got hard again. Within the last year we got a diagnosis of SPD and we have been in OT since trying to figure out how to make life easier for you and for us. Mommy felt like she was not doing you justice and that hurt. I hurt for you. I fought though. I fought hard for you just as I fought hard to be able to conceive you and you have come so far. I am so proud of you.
Nobody ever said it would be easy but they did say it would be worth it and these past 5 years have been so worth it. You have taught me so much. You continue to teach me patience, unconditional love, how to live in the moment, you have to taught me how to be a better me.
I see so much of myself in you. Your drive. Your perfectionism. Your eagerness to please. I so want to tell my "little self" relax, enjoy life, don't worry. You are smart. You are kind. You are loved. I tell you this but I am not sure you grasp fully the amazingness that you are.
Happy 5th birthday buddy. God knew just what he was doing when he "gave me you".
Now for a few fun facts about you at this age:
- You are tall! You are greater than 90th percentile for height and weight. You are the tallest in your class!
- You have an amazing smile.
- You continue to love music.
- You love machinery but in particular, you love tractors. You used to love Kubota since that is what Papa drives but since there is a lot more John Deere merchandise, you are fond of that now too.
- Your favorite colors are orange and green (see above for the reason).
- You don't care for meat but if you have to eat it, you love Dada's BBQ chicken drumsticks.
- You love olives and hummus...two things I find unique for your age.
- You love fruit.
- You eat your vegetables...you prefer raw.
- You have grown to really like rice.
- You like fries...the shoestring ones...not crinkle cut like Dada and your brother :)
- You love treats like candy, ice cream and McDonald's and since we don't do those a lot you really enjoy them.
- You know all your colors and are working on letters but you can spell and write your first name with upper and lower case!
- You are now in Pre-K in the morning class and you LOVE it! Mommy kept you out of K this year and it was the best decision I made. You are thriving. You would have been the youngest in your class since you literally were born on the "cut off day" but now you are the oldest and it has been great.
- You have made a friend at school named Cale. You think it is cool that you both have the same backpacks and if you just change one letter of your names you can spell the other's name :)
- Your other friends are Nick (your cousin) and Lucas (a new friend from down the road).
- You continue to enjoy Riley who was your friend in preschool but she attends the afternoon Pre-K session so you don't see her as much. She often requests to sit with you on the bus though :)
- You are a busy boy with lots of energy, curiosity and desire to learn.
- You love to watch movies and T.V. for your downtime. Some of your favorites are Curious George, Doc McStuffins, Scooby-Doo, Tom and Jerry, and Mighty Machines.
- You say you want to "work on an island like Dada" when you grow up :)
Happy Birthday Handsome!
Editor's Note: The end of the month you had your "well visit" and you are 97th percentile for height and 96th percentile for weight (no surprise there!). You also got your flu shot and one of your many you need at this age. We go at the end of next month for two more. You were scared but overall you did well :) The doctor says you are doing great and you impressed him and Momma when you said, "Lion" while talking to him with a perfect "L" sound! Way to go bud!
As any mother will often say at any age, it feels like just yesterday that after 30 hours of difficult labor and delivery I delivered my first child. To say he is a blessing does not do justice. I am getting teary just thinking about it.
You are amazing buddy. You are my first child. You are so smart. So sweet. So sensitive. You have empathy and compassion beyond your years. You are an AMAZING big brother.
Things have not always been easy. The end of my pregnancy with you was hard- I had high blood pressure and bed rest. The labor was hard- 30 hours and you delivered face up and I had a 4th degree tear. Your first few hours and months were hard- in your first hours you stopped breathing once and you cried all night long. You initially tested positive for a rare disease that would have impacted your growth (LOL...look how big you are now!) and would have required constant supply of nutrients to your system as your body would not have been able to store them so for few weeks we were so scared and were required to feed you every 4 hours no matter what. You had colic your first 3 months and would only sleep if someone held you. You struggled to latch and I struggled to nurse you.
Then it was easy. Further testing showed you did not have the disease. You slept great. You ate great. You were growing wonderfully (and have continued!). You were developing and hitting milestones quickly. You were such a joy.
Then it got hard again. Within the last year we got a diagnosis of SPD and we have been in OT since trying to figure out how to make life easier for you and for us. Mommy felt like she was not doing you justice and that hurt. I hurt for you. I fought though. I fought hard for you just as I fought hard to be able to conceive you and you have come so far. I am so proud of you.
Nobody ever said it would be easy but they did say it would be worth it and these past 5 years have been so worth it. You have taught me so much. You continue to teach me patience, unconditional love, how to live in the moment, you have to taught me how to be a better me.
I see so much of myself in you. Your drive. Your perfectionism. Your eagerness to please. I so want to tell my "little self" relax, enjoy life, don't worry. You are smart. You are kind. You are loved. I tell you this but I am not sure you grasp fully the amazingness that you are.
Happy 5th birthday buddy. God knew just what he was doing when he "gave me you".
Now for a few fun facts about you at this age:
- You are tall! You are greater than 90th percentile for height and weight. You are the tallest in your class!
- You have an amazing smile.
- You continue to love music.
- You love machinery but in particular, you love tractors. You used to love Kubota since that is what Papa drives but since there is a lot more John Deere merchandise, you are fond of that now too.
- Your favorite colors are orange and green (see above for the reason).
- You don't care for meat but if you have to eat it, you love Dada's BBQ chicken drumsticks.
- You love olives and hummus...two things I find unique for your age.
- You love fruit.
- You eat your vegetables...you prefer raw.
- You have grown to really like rice.
- You like fries...the shoestring ones...not crinkle cut like Dada and your brother :)
- You love treats like candy, ice cream and McDonald's and since we don't do those a lot you really enjoy them.
- You know all your colors and are working on letters but you can spell and write your first name with upper and lower case!
- You are now in Pre-K in the morning class and you LOVE it! Mommy kept you out of K this year and it was the best decision I made. You are thriving. You would have been the youngest in your class since you literally were born on the "cut off day" but now you are the oldest and it has been great.
- You have made a friend at school named Cale. You think it is cool that you both have the same backpacks and if you just change one letter of your names you can spell the other's name :)
- Your other friends are Nick (your cousin) and Lucas (a new friend from down the road).
- You continue to enjoy Riley who was your friend in preschool but she attends the afternoon Pre-K session so you don't see her as much. She often requests to sit with you on the bus though :)
- You are a busy boy with lots of energy, curiosity and desire to learn.
- You love to watch movies and T.V. for your downtime. Some of your favorites are Curious George, Doc McStuffins, Scooby-Doo, Tom and Jerry, and Mighty Machines.
- You say you want to "work on an island like Dada" when you grow up :)
Happy Birthday Handsome!
Editor's Note: The end of the month you had your "well visit" and you are 97th percentile for height and 96th percentile for weight (no surprise there!). You also got your flu shot and one of your many you need at this age. We go at the end of next month for two more. You were scared but overall you did well :) The doctor says you are doing great and you impressed him and Momma when you said, "Lion" while talking to him with a perfect "L" sound! Way to go bud!
Wednesday, October 9, 2013
The "Other" Challenge
So I mentioned in my last "Living and Active" Challenge post that I also took on another challenge at the same time. This one is a "30 Day Plank Challenge".
A friend of mine who is at an amazing point in her weight loss journey (she is down 87 lbs!) asked who wanted to do this with her and I agreed. I have always enjoyed planking from my yoga days as it really does a nice job working on the whole body, it doesn't require equipment and really requires little time but does a lot of good in that time. I remember my yoga instructor once saying, "If you just do one thing a day do planking. It will tone your whole body." So I was excited to take on this challenge. It seemed manageable (key for me) and I am doing it with a friend so that makes it more fun.
Here is where I am at so far and where I need to go:
A friend of mine who is at an amazing point in her weight loss journey (she is down 87 lbs!) asked who wanted to do this with her and I agreed. I have always enjoyed planking from my yoga days as it really does a nice job working on the whole body, it doesn't require equipment and really requires little time but does a lot of good in that time. I remember my yoga instructor once saying, "If you just do one thing a day do planking. It will tone your whole body." So I was excited to take on this challenge. It seemed manageable (key for me) and I am doing it with a friend so that makes it more fun.
Here is where I am at so far and where I need to go:
So a few things here. I am only at day 9 of 30 but on a positive note I have gone in that time from 20 seconds to a full minute! I think it is INSANE to think I am going to get to 5 minutes. I said that to my friend from the very beginning. I started struggling at 45 seconds and a minute was pure torture yesterday (I did it after Zumba, at the end of my day, and after some intense shoulder work so that probably was not a smart move). Today I did my minute first thing in the morning and that helped but I still struggled. I am proud to think I have made it to 1 minute but discouraged to think there is no way I will make it to 5 minutes. I am excited to push myself though in small manageable goals.
My friend and I have already started looking for a new challenge as the 5 week "Living and Active" one ends next week. (Wahoo! I will have completed 5 weeks!) I need these little personal challenges to keep me going. I sadly do not yet have the drive within me to just do it myself (hence my major struggle with food...I need to find a small manageable challenge for that!) Having an amazingly wonderful and inspiring friend to push me and encourage me is great.
So there you have it friends. My "other" challenge.
Tuesday, October 8, 2013
Girl Time
Recently I went out with a fellow Mommy. We went once before and enjoyed our time so much we decided to do it again. All we did was leave our family (she has a hubby and two boys as well) after they were all settled in with dinner and we headed out of town for pedicures. Nothing fancy but oh so needed. We talked nonstop and the time just flew by. Both times we actually pulled back into my house after being out and sat and talked in the car.
We have similar thoughts on life and each of our boys are within 6 months of age of each other. We have similar desires and goals.
We also have differences.
She is homeschooling her boys. I am not. She is Baptist. I am a Congregationalist. She is nearing completion on her weight loss journey. I have only just begun. She is 5 years younger than I am...ugh. She thinks she may be done having children. I want more.
However, despite our differences and our similarities the thing that has really connected us during these times is that we both needed this.
We both needed some girl time.
We both needed to feel pampered a little and to take some time for just us.
We are both Mommies and we are both tired and we are both now happy with our pretty little toes :)
I can't wait to do it again in another couple of months :)
Monday, October 7, 2013
Living and Active Challenge Week 4
Did I type that right?!
I actually went back to the site to make sure I was right. I can't believe we are at week 4. I can actually say I am proud. At the end of this week I will have committed to working out 4 times a week for 4 weeks at this point. Yay!
AND as of last week I have started a new challenge (a planking challenge I will post about soon.)
Yes, that is right. I am doing two challenges at once. Go me!
Last week was easy for me. The exercise part. It came easy. I am happy for that. This week we have a busy week so I have to cram it in a little but I have a plan so I know I can do it.
A plan.
That is what is helping me with exercise and actually writing that plan out. It is something I have not yet done and desperately need to with food. I need to start small though and am not sure where to start. This 4 times a week for 5 weeks thing makes me feel like it is attainable and that is what I need to do with food.
Being true to the scripture this week though I focused a lot on cravings. It was very eye opening. I realize they are a major issues for me but I had no idea just how major. Literally I had a constant battle in my head on days I really focused on them. I KNEW I didn't need it. I KNEW I wasn't even hungry. I KNEW I just wanted it. I kept saying this over and over in my head, "I can do all things through God who strengthens me" and in church Sunday, I prayed for strength. The last few days during the day I have done well but oh those nights. They get me. The days were no cake-walk (no pun intended) either but the nights when I have a moment to myself and to actually breath it seems, that is when the cravings are hard to resist.
I am so happy with my exercise routine yet I am still so dependent. I need those external sources to push me. A class, a challenge, etc. I can't seem to do it alone.
The spiritual piece has been wonderful. I commit me needs to prayer and I focus on he scriptures. They are powerful.
Man, I am still such a HUGE work in progress.
So this week here is my plan for exercise:
Today has been hard to get my workout in as the boys have been clingy but I will get a video workout in at some point. I am really like the one I found that is beginners boot camp. I think I may do that again.
Tuesday and Thursday I will hopefully make it to Zumba. If not, video again.
Wednesday will be a video or Zumba and I hope that one of those days I will also get to mow the lawn. It needs a final mowing and it is a good workout.
Friday-Sunday I am not sure what will happen. We have a busy "weekend" planned since it is Columbus Day weekend and there is no school Friday. I hope to find time to exercise but if not, I have planned to workout the other 4 days to get my four times a week in for sure.
Food? I plan to continue focusing on my cravings. Just this alone will be a huge challenge for me.
I also plan to focus on my heart and learning this scripture :
I actually went back to the site to make sure I was right. I can't believe we are at week 4. I can actually say I am proud. At the end of this week I will have committed to working out 4 times a week for 4 weeks at this point. Yay!
AND as of last week I have started a new challenge (a planking challenge I will post about soon.)
Yes, that is right. I am doing two challenges at once. Go me!
Last week was easy for me. The exercise part. It came easy. I am happy for that. This week we have a busy week so I have to cram it in a little but I have a plan so I know I can do it.
A plan.
That is what is helping me with exercise and actually writing that plan out. It is something I have not yet done and desperately need to with food. I need to start small though and am not sure where to start. This 4 times a week for 5 weeks thing makes me feel like it is attainable and that is what I need to do with food.
Being true to the scripture this week though I focused a lot on cravings. It was very eye opening. I realize they are a major issues for me but I had no idea just how major. Literally I had a constant battle in my head on days I really focused on them. I KNEW I didn't need it. I KNEW I wasn't even hungry. I KNEW I just wanted it. I kept saying this over and over in my head, "I can do all things through God who strengthens me" and in church Sunday, I prayed for strength. The last few days during the day I have done well but oh those nights. They get me. The days were no cake-walk (no pun intended) either but the nights when I have a moment to myself and to actually breath it seems, that is when the cravings are hard to resist.
I am so happy with my exercise routine yet I am still so dependent. I need those external sources to push me. A class, a challenge, etc. I can't seem to do it alone.
The spiritual piece has been wonderful. I commit me needs to prayer and I focus on he scriptures. They are powerful.
Man, I am still such a HUGE work in progress.
So this week here is my plan for exercise:
Today has been hard to get my workout in as the boys have been clingy but I will get a video workout in at some point. I am really like the one I found that is beginners boot camp. I think I may do that again.
Tuesday and Thursday I will hopefully make it to Zumba. If not, video again.
Wednesday will be a video or Zumba and I hope that one of those days I will also get to mow the lawn. It needs a final mowing and it is a good workout.
Friday-Sunday I am not sure what will happen. We have a busy "weekend" planned since it is Columbus Day weekend and there is no school Friday. I hope to find time to exercise but if not, I have planned to workout the other 4 days to get my four times a week in for sure.
Food? I plan to continue focusing on my cravings. Just this alone will be a huge challenge for me.
I also plan to focus on my heart and learning this scripture :
There you have it! Week 3 down and week 4 started!
Wednesday, October 2, 2013
You Did What?!
He swallowed a marble.
Typical 2 year old right?
Nope.
My almost 5 year old!
What ensued after was a lot of panic from my son who I think was shocked it happened and a little scared. Then my husband saying, "WHAT?! GO SEE YOUR MOTHER!"
When I heard this I knew it wasn't good. I expected my son had broken something precious to me. I was not prepared for, "I swallowed a marble" as tears streamed from his eyes and panic spread on his face.
I calmed him. Said you are breathing fine right? Can you feel it? Where? (He pointed to his tummy so I knew it was all good in that respect). I had him swallow something. It went down fine.
Just to be safe I called the doctor after measuring it... 1/2 inch. It should come out fine I suspected but just thought I should check. It was plastic too so I worried a little less. It was a marble so it was smooth. Worried even less.
Of course, this happened on a Sunday. Poor doctor. She did well though and didn't sound annoyed and said, as I suspected, that it should come out in 2-3 days. I was glad I called though because she also said to go to the ER if he had trouble going the bathroom or started vomiting. Good to know. And I WAS remaining calm.
My husband on the other hand wanted to give him a laxative and pump the poop inducing fruit to him (pears are a big one in our home.) Thank goodness I called the doctor because me telling my husband that you can't make it come out (it does have to travel through your body after all) wasn't convincing enough for him. LOL. He, as cute as it was, said he was also a little worried that the plastic was a cheap "made in China" toy so who knows what is in his body now. LOL.
Later that night my son proudly "did his business" and insisted I check for the marble. I told him I was pretty sure that it wouldn't be there. But, I donned my plastic bag and played with my 5 year olds poop. Yep. That's is a Mom for you.
And do you know what my son later confessed he was worried about? How we would "save the marble". He didn't want to have the piece missing from his game. Sigh...
I then had to do this for 3 more days.
At one point my husband interrupted my 30 minutes I asked for of alone time to exercise to "look for a stick" to "poke the poop" since he was NOT touching it. I just bagged my hand and dove in. LOL.
Even Handsome 1's pre-k teacher was on a alert to "check for the marble." God bless her kind heart.
So after 3 days I got a phone call while at work.
"Mom?"
"Yes Handsome 1"
"Mom?!'
"Yes Handsome 1?!'
"Mom say something so I know I am talking into the right part" (of the phone)....LOL.
"Handsome 1 I am right here. What do you need?"
"Um. Okay. The marble is out of my body. MeMe found it."
Thank the Lord. No more "fishing".
Oh and guess what?
Yep. We saved it.
It is soaking in bleach right now because even though someone felt the need to eat it, he didn't want to lose it from his game.
Sigh.
You know what is worse? I actually stopped for a moment to think, "How cool is this? It went through my son's entire digestive system system!" Yeah. I am a Mom of boys :)
Typical 2 year old right?
Nope.
My almost 5 year old!
What ensued after was a lot of panic from my son who I think was shocked it happened and a little scared. Then my husband saying, "WHAT?! GO SEE YOUR MOTHER!"
When I heard this I knew it wasn't good. I expected my son had broken something precious to me. I was not prepared for, "I swallowed a marble" as tears streamed from his eyes and panic spread on his face.
I calmed him. Said you are breathing fine right? Can you feel it? Where? (He pointed to his tummy so I knew it was all good in that respect). I had him swallow something. It went down fine.
Just to be safe I called the doctor after measuring it... 1/2 inch. It should come out fine I suspected but just thought I should check. It was plastic too so I worried a little less. It was a marble so it was smooth. Worried even less.
Of course, this happened on a Sunday. Poor doctor. She did well though and didn't sound annoyed and said, as I suspected, that it should come out in 2-3 days. I was glad I called though because she also said to go to the ER if he had trouble going the bathroom or started vomiting. Good to know. And I WAS remaining calm.
My husband on the other hand wanted to give him a laxative and pump the poop inducing fruit to him (pears are a big one in our home.) Thank goodness I called the doctor because me telling my husband that you can't make it come out (it does have to travel through your body after all) wasn't convincing enough for him. LOL. He, as cute as it was, said he was also a little worried that the plastic was a cheap "made in China" toy so who knows what is in his body now. LOL.
Later that night my son proudly "did his business" and insisted I check for the marble. I told him I was pretty sure that it wouldn't be there. But, I donned my plastic bag and played with my 5 year olds poop. Yep. That's is a Mom for you.
And do you know what my son later confessed he was worried about? How we would "save the marble". He didn't want to have the piece missing from his game. Sigh...
I then had to do this for 3 more days.
At one point my husband interrupted my 30 minutes I asked for of alone time to exercise to "look for a stick" to "poke the poop" since he was NOT touching it. I just bagged my hand and dove in. LOL.
Even Handsome 1's pre-k teacher was on a alert to "check for the marble." God bless her kind heart.
So after 3 days I got a phone call while at work.
"Mom?"
"Yes Handsome 1"
"Mom?!'
"Yes Handsome 1?!'
"Mom say something so I know I am talking into the right part" (of the phone)....LOL.
"Handsome 1 I am right here. What do you need?"
"Um. Okay. The marble is out of my body. MeMe found it."
Thank the Lord. No more "fishing".
Oh and guess what?
Yep. We saved it.
It is soaking in bleach right now because even though someone felt the need to eat it, he didn't want to lose it from his game.
Sigh.
You know what is worse? I actually stopped for a moment to think, "How cool is this? It went through my son's entire digestive system system!" Yeah. I am a Mom of boys :)
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